the Reiality of my life style.

I am living completely true to myself. I'm sure the world (and by world i mean the people inhabiting it) isn't ready for it, but I am. And my soul is in MY body, so I'm going to live for me. I do what is best for me. I'm a selfish being. It is evident in the amount of sentences that I started with "I".

so here's another one.

I love girls. In being true to myself, I am more in-tune with my primal instinctual side. It is embedded in my brain stem to want to care for and protect females. What I'm not sure about is if people understand what this means. I love a lot of girls. I am not IN love with a lot of women. I reserve teh largest portion of my heart for one girl. I'm looking for her, and i may have a couple leads.

Now, another thing im not happy about, not enough people read this blog. I plug and plug this link over and over and i only have two followers. weaksauce.

I need people that i talk to, to see this, so they can understand me a bit more. otherwise im just talking to myself, which can be therapeutic, but I'm not in need of therapy.(honestly, im weird, not crazy)
hahah

In regards to my loyalties: There are people that i will always protect and have respect for. Also, as with most things, there is a mirrored side to this law. There are people that i once had respect for that i do not now. I want to list them.

but first, i need to explain the differences in services i will provide these two parties.

To those i am loyal to:
-I will do anything for them.
+if they are in trouble, i will provide help gladly.
+if they are confused, i will provide guidance.
+I will have deep patience for them.
+I will give my life for theirs.

In short, these people are vital to me. VITAL.
If you are on my loyalty list, feel special, because you are still unaware of what i will do for you.

now for the second group:
- I will be aware that we were once closer,
giving me a sense of nostalgic obligation.
- i will halfheartedly help you.
- my patience for you will be shorter than the average person.
- and lastly, I do not care for you passionately.

this is a true thing. not a sad one.
-It takes TIME to get on this list. also, a few names will be excluded for some minuscule factors.
Loyalty:no particular order.
+Cody
+Dion
+Loli
+Eileen(i think i spelled that right.)((cody's mother))
+Sofia
+Erica-chan~
+Rachael

7 people. reasons specific to each person will be explained in a separate blog.

if your name was not on the list, you can either assume that is because you are on the list parallel to this one, or that i haven't yet decided where to place you.
the parallel list will be laid out sometime also.

peace and love
Rei