Blazing the trail

Moshi moshi. I had to get up and close the door for this one.(i know, not so epic) I even prepared a playlist to listen to while I'm blogging. Lets get the poke'ball rolling. Well, quite frankly, im lost. I'm a thoughtful person(inwardly thoughtful) and I can only try and please myself. I don't think that it's wrong of me to be this way. Everyone should live for themselves. This is one of the messages i wish to spread across the vast and overly populated planet of ours through my music. This planet is OURS and i don't think it should be so difficult to travel about. Every human owns this earth equally. More accurately, the earth is providing a utopia for OUR lives. yet, we treat it as if it can be used and replaced with ease. What I'm getting at, I suppose, is that i am frustrated with the human race. Frustrated and disappointed. There is such a isotopically small population of people who actually live their lives in a true and pure way. I am one of them. I hope to lead by example. But its hard to do when the world is brainwashed by what is "cool" and blind homophobia.

First, I'll touch on the "cool" factor. Everybody knows that the youth are who shape our future. But we are the ones who shape the youth. And when they aren't getting their minds sucked of individuality and curiosity by religion and hatred, they are poisoned by their parents in other ways. Not to mention the brain pollutions known as drug abuse, alcohol abuse(which IS a drug), domestic abuse, among other despicable things. As if these things weren't harsh enough, the people of the world long so deeply to be accepted, that they choose to do whatever is "cool". If they feel cool, they will be content with whatever they do. Lupe fiasco launched his attack against this before and I am helping raise the torch once more. Being cool (being accepted) has disrupted the flow of peace and harmony in the world. which brings me to my hatred of gangs. I dont need to get into that now.












Next is homophobia. Homophobia is a profoundly misplaced mental error. The world is so obsessed with how other people live their lives, it is unsettling. The world wants to hate and fear and hurt, But I digress. People are so scared of things being considered homosexual, that they crucify things such as creativity and self expression just for being what they might see as "feminine" or "gay". Things that bare no indication of femininity whatsoever, such as colors. Pink is apparently a girls color. Flowers are girly. Bright colors are "gay" when worn by males. Tight jeans are for "fags". Showing emotions of distress, sadness, and open affection are considered to be gay as well, for women are the only people allowed to FEEL. Why are we so afraid of people who do things differently? I am not a homosexual. I do not love homosexuals. I don't hate homosexuals. I say these things because i hold the same standards for homosexuals that i hold for EVERY other group of people. I cant say i like a whole population or dislike them without meeting them individually. With that said, i don't love nor hate heterosexuals. To say such a thing is Purely ignorant. If i meet a gay person, and i enjoy their company or conversation, I will like that individual person. I can in no way judge an entire collection of thinking, feeling human beings based upon one experience or none at all. Spread love.







What I need you to do(you, being everyone living,breathing,eating etc.)is to think for YOURSELF. You inhabit YOUR OWN body. Do not allow outside influences to hinder your thoughts any longer. Dont be anything that you are not. You are all you have in this world.

This wonderful world.
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I feel like im giving this planet a bad rap. But these things are true. the world has great people. and terrible people. Those choosing to linger in between and remain in limbo are just as bad as those who are the bad guys of the world. if you do not condone it, fight it. And before you fight, make sure you have your morals in order.
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Just get your heads right.
Thanks for your time internet world.
Rei, out.

Megamaniacal

usually, my titles have absolutely Zip to do with my subject matter.(keep that in mind) hahah

I officially finished high school yesterday. Feeling a little more free now. I'm at a bit of a loss for words at the moment. block cleared. okay! Today i will play Exteel. I reached level 10 yesterday :D I'm very proud of myself. I painted my mecha green, and got a new leg set for it. I'm going for speed and a light build. I swear that game is the bee's knees ahaha. Not quite a simulator, but there is enough customization to keep me feeling like I'm the pilot. My call ID:Vash001

I recorded the intro to my full length mix tape yesterday. I scrapped the old idea. It was a whimsical decision for the most part. The new intro is roughly two minutes long. a single verse and chorus, with a short talk with me. For a while i strayed away from being myself and tried to be more artsy and abstract. when my real art was there all along. I'm still nameless."My name is, well lets save that for later" haah.

I want to find something i can run with and be completely happy to have represent me.

Okay, well i'm gonna keep this short for no particular reason other than that i dont have much to talk about right now ^.^

Rei,out.

The good times are killing me

Modest mouse never disappoints.

well, i havent blogged for a long while.I'm RP'ng as sasuke with perry haah. its fun. okay, well last night Laura kept me up til one on teh phone. shes great, she cares alot.One thing i need to get off my 18 year old over protective chest. I crave a conversation with Sonata. well thats her current myspace username. I really have an interest in talking to her, but Sora likes to cling. I dont want another freak out to be added to his record. and another frustrated calming of myself in order not to hate him added to mine. the chump.
I watched the first two episodes of Dragon Ball Kai today. I'm satisfied. its dragon ball z the way it SHOULD have been. No crap. No more fifty episode draw outs. kaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!
lmgreatao ahahaha.

i unlocked a few new characters in Jump Ultimate Stars today. That game is dope. im starting to get an idea of the mission types. The text is ENTIRELY japanese. haah. I can manage though. I just downloaded a game called Exteel. Its pretty impressive. For the most part, its a multiplayer shootem up. but what makes it interesting is that you can customize your mech and weapon sets. you can also level up, who doesnt like leveling up? LOSERS. thats who.
well, part of me wants to explore my interest in Sonata further, meanwhile my other, more level headed side wants nothing more than to be happy with Laura. I am as loyal as a dog when it comes to girls. so there is no threat to my future girlfriend(s). yet, i will always remain curious and kind towards the opposite sex.
I truly care for fems. I love them. I will forever be crippled by my adoration for the female sex. And i dont care. I just hope my future girlfriends can understand.
coming to another point, im frkn lonely. i havent dated a girl since Sarra. and we split around october, if i remember properly. its may now. the end of it. I dont want to make any rash decisions just because im bleeding for a womans touch. I'm a very lonely and depressed person. its pretty much the most significant swing of the hammer against the chisel over the marble rock of my persona. that was a long one, but i liked it.

Depression fuels the human psyche so powerfully. a single fit of depression-inspired rage can change your life as you know it. for better or for worse. I have a calm and cool demeanor, as much as i hate to give him credit, i might have inherited it from my father. The goku to my gohan, if you will. I handle anger very well. It's one of the things that sets me apart from most people in the world. i honestly think before i act. Instinctively.

this is all im gonna say for now,
-Rei, out.

the day before my fanime-cation

okay, so ''m all packed up. Got my chargers for my vital equipment.(my dsi, and phone never leave me) my clothes are packed and my toothbrush and what not. Fanime is gonna be ill. i cannot wait. so yeah, I'm on my Vash The Stampede shit. Getting ready to show N1ggas that i can cause madd damage but choose not to. lmgreatao ^.^ i need to watch Trigun anime from start to finish. Real talk. I am NAMELESS. which makes it hard to stunt on dudes, cuz i cant even find something to call myself. How can you take that seriously? then again, how can you take somebody who calls their self Sonic the hamilton? easy. understand it. at least try to.(i have no beef w CH) pretty much the opposite. I wish i could meet the dude. my favorite artist. or fuck it, the best most honest musical artist in history. pushing it? i dont think so.
Chill.
I just made my lady think I'm a mega perv. when really I'm just honest about my perversions haha.
Yo, Oreskaband BLACKS ahaha. I ninja'd their album via internet last night to put on my DSi.sick shit. Japanese Ska band? heavy.
-I can rap my ninja. WELL too. better than anybody in my area. the 831 aint got shit on my ninja, ass. Trust me, I BLACK. just havent recorded any of my Real 1337 shit. Im still working on completing a full length project. Will Mega Tokyo drop this summer!? my recording quality is bugged, but i can make it worth while. I got those charles hamilton beats and im planning some Zetta hard shit. All me too, none of that trying to sound dope to other people. OH, and the project that im negotiating with my ninja, Noid. He has potential. well, i wont be blogging for the rest of the week, for i will be swimming in the ocean of fan service known as Fanime 09. but i can follow my tweets at twitter.com/bloodystance
-Look n1gga, i know the name sounds morbid but chill. its not hahah.
oh yeah, I cant wait to get my hands on a copy of Jump ultimate Stars! its an import and everything's in japanese(except for the title) but i can read enough kana to know what im doing haha.
-Intense manga mash-ups!? you got it.
Who do you think would win in a fight between, Naruto and Luffy? haha we'll see.(whichever character I'M playing as of course) haha.
well,
NAMELESS, signing off.

MegaTokyo!

while writing the second song for my new project, it came to me.Call it MegaTokyo. I love the thought of a futuristic technologically advanced world. I've been thinking about the manga also titled Mega Tokyo. When i lay down, i see this city. I am an inhabitant, and so is everyone i know. but they represent themselves in a vibrant anime style. That's where my music is gonna generate from now on. i live in my mind. haha lmgreatao.
_Well, i didnt forget about blogging. just took a break. been kinda busy. My music may sound similar to my favorite artists, but that's where i draw my inspiration. every artists draws from their favorites. Don't be a monster unless you want me to k you and collect your experience. lmgreatao. I'd say right now im a level...68. most people are down at lv.35 or so.(i have a high opinion of myself)
_In a previous entry i stated that i would give reasons for why i was loyal to some people but i dont really want to.(lazyness strikes back!)

_Peace and love
_Rei

Slow motion like a dream

But real time is what it seems :)
-N*E*R*D

I really love their music. anyway! Today was a fantastical day! I woke up today, zetta anxious. My birthday was on Wednesday, but we celebrate them on weekends so today(Saturday)i got my gifts and what not. i ended up with about 150 credits, and a Nintendo dsi. The DSi is zetta cool. I love it already. So after the lil' shindig at the g-ma's crib where we held the celebration, i requested a visit to Gamestop. My dad dropped me off at the mall. I headed straight to my favorite video game retailer. i couldn't find a copy of The World Ends With You on the shelves so i asked the clerk. I got the last copy! lmgreatao :D the customer service dude tossed the game over the desk to the cashier all ninja style, the cashier caught it and gently placed it on the table. I handed him the 20 bucks and got my game. I swear game store employees are the dopest. Okay well, lets face it, im in dire need of some new gear, i pretty much wear my white v-necks and the same two pairs of jeans all fuckn week. our dryer likes to burn brown marks onto all our clothes haha. lame. so i had some cash and went over to Pacsun. Dope store. Got a neon blue T, and a neon pink t. also bought two pairs of kirra shades. I never really looked good in sunglasses, but im hoping when my hair grows out itll look better.

hmmmm, afterwards i got home put my micro SD card in the large adapter and put it into my DSi. nothings on it yet though. i had some problems trying to download the necessary software apps but eventually got it done. the web browser is exceptionally fast. i am proud of nintendo's new little addition to its console roster.

also, a major factor in my happiness is my constant text conversations with Misaki. Hopefully this can work out. She's an interesting girl. which is vital because my obsessiveness causes me to grow bored quickly. Will Rei finally get a girl?

Oh yeah. From now on you can call me Shugo. I know what youre thinking but fuck it. Call me Shugo. hahahaha.

I have more control than you think.

-Shugo,
Out.

Mr. Martian will hang your ass from the moon.

wayne's new Rebirth album is shaping up to be pretty ill.
"Try creatively retarted or amazingly rewarded"
-Wayne.

im going to my G-ma's home dwelling for some gifts, cake, and money. If i get my dsi i will jizz myself. Lmgreatao.

Well, Laura, (nicknamed Misaki to avoid awkwardness) has given me a nickname in return.

Shugotenshi. It means guardian angel, which i thought was so sweet and appropriate.

oh also, im listening to the Fly or Die album by N*E*R*D. it is amazing. Music at its finest. pharrell and chad outdid themselves.

the Reiality of my life style.

I am living completely true to myself. I'm sure the world (and by world i mean the people inhabiting it) isn't ready for it, but I am. And my soul is in MY body, so I'm going to live for me. I do what is best for me. I'm a selfish being. It is evident in the amount of sentences that I started with "I".

so here's another one.

I love girls. In being true to myself, I am more in-tune with my primal instinctual side. It is embedded in my brain stem to want to care for and protect females. What I'm not sure about is if people understand what this means. I love a lot of girls. I am not IN love with a lot of women. I reserve teh largest portion of my heart for one girl. I'm looking for her, and i may have a couple leads.

Now, another thing im not happy about, not enough people read this blog. I plug and plug this link over and over and i only have two followers. weaksauce.

I need people that i talk to, to see this, so they can understand me a bit more. otherwise im just talking to myself, which can be therapeutic, but I'm not in need of therapy.(honestly, im weird, not crazy)
hahah

In regards to my loyalties: There are people that i will always protect and have respect for. Also, as with most things, there is a mirrored side to this law. There are people that i once had respect for that i do not now. I want to list them.

but first, i need to explain the differences in services i will provide these two parties.

To those i am loyal to:
-I will do anything for them.
+if they are in trouble, i will provide help gladly.
+if they are confused, i will provide guidance.
+I will have deep patience for them.
+I will give my life for theirs.

In short, these people are vital to me. VITAL.
If you are on my loyalty list, feel special, because you are still unaware of what i will do for you.

now for the second group:
- I will be aware that we were once closer,
giving me a sense of nostalgic obligation.
- i will halfheartedly help you.
- my patience for you will be shorter than the average person.
- and lastly, I do not care for you passionately.

this is a true thing. not a sad one.
-It takes TIME to get on this list. also, a few names will be excluded for some minuscule factors.
Loyalty:no particular order.
+Cody
+Dion
+Loli
+Eileen(i think i spelled that right.)((cody's mother))
+Sofia
+Erica-chan~
+Rachael

7 people. reasons specific to each person will be explained in a separate blog.

if your name was not on the list, you can either assume that is because you are on the list parallel to this one, or that i haven't yet decided where to place you.
the parallel list will be laid out sometime also.

peace and love
Rei

hectic hesitancy.

I am back in this predicament. hahahah. I find it funny and entertaining along with frustrating. My life is interesting. Well it seems like i always get left with multiple options when it comes to girls. rarely easy decisions. but that's what makes it interesting.

Laura is a young freshman. I'm listening to her Lily Allen profile song right now. shes cool. has braces. shes cool. we still haven't met in person. shes cool. (she has lolz of cool points) i got her into manga ;3 i am pretty proud of that. We text a lot. the only problems really are that she's a freshman and i am about to be 18.

the other girl, I'm not going to get into right now. but I'll just say that she has a family that i don't have too much respect for, and a certain someone wont like me being close to her. should be interesting.

well well, aren't i honest!
i feel its the best way to live life. I don't like secrets or postponing the inevitable.

so i need to establish a few things. i don't care to share them here at the moment. Fuck it i hate secrets. I'm texting Virginia right now. (I've actually nicknamed the girls by their location.) i need to tell her that i am talking to greenfield and soledad. and that boundaries need to be established to isolate my feelings and direct them toward my current objectives. these two girls are in close proximity and have loads to offer me and I them.

my services as a protector are going to be in effect soon. with the distance we have i cant do my part.(geared toward Virginia) well, this isnt exactly tough, because im only assembling words in a sentence to get what i truly want to be said across. whats difficult is that i am trying to do it in a fashion that wont cause you to feel any negative emotion.

hmmmm.
i think thats all for now. i dont want to keep my brother up any longer.
oh! my birthdays in a day and im getting my dsi woot woot :D
also i am securing bonds with dion. He's a great person.

love and peace
-Rei.

MMORPG's

Massively Multiplayer Online Role Playing Games.
Why i love them:
+Its an interactive experience, that you dont need friends over to share.
+You are rewarded for time spent.
+You endulge in a new world, and create an identity for yourself.
+You are free to choose what you do.
++Recently, Improved combat has been being focused on.

I have alot of time on my hands, and i need a solid MMO to hold me down.
Right now im beta testing Dragonica. Its a great game. the combat is fun, and the dialogue is actually funny at times. The community is good already, and the combat sys. is real time! zetta +. This game is whats occupying me now.

But what im really waiting for is Dragon Nest. This game would easily be a killer app if it were debuting on a console. But its not. And i couldn't be more thankful. I also couldnt be more eager to get my hands on it.
Dragon Nest is a Free to play MMORPG being published by Nexon and developed by Eyedentity Games. The games graphics engine is outstanding for an MMO. Not only is it beautiful, its specs aren't compromisingly high. So you dont need a crazy gfx card to play it. Now, yes i do love good graphics, but they are wasted if the game play isn't solid, and I am ecstatically joyous to report that the character movement is smooth and agile, and the combat is not only realtime, but extremely well put together and executed. here is a vid: the Warrior character class demo.

Video provided by video.mmosite.com

Barely found this hahh. i feel like a newb. the footage is new, but i didnt realize i cld get it embedded XD

I wish i had this on the tube so i wouldn't have to plug a link and you guys could just watch it here, but gawd its more than worth it.

I am Zetta psyched to get this game on my Desktop. This game will probably give me eye problems and cause me to need glasses. *cannot wait*

Well, enough gushing. wait, not yet, my birthday is approaching and i will be getting my DSi wooh wooh! Okay, now that's enough gushing.

+Peace & Love
++Rei

The mega man

Im Zetta good right now :D feeling great. If Charles Hamilton is Sonic Teh Hedgehog. Then I'm Megaman. No joke. Lmgreatao.

Im a starchaser(thanks CH) I'm listening to his shut up already tracks. He never disappoints. Most niggas will see this ass d1ck riding. but honestly, im just a huge fan. i love honest music, and this musician doesn't make anything but that. you dont need me to say this but, Keep going Charles.

well, im discovering how creative i can be. Came up with a cool concept. Stances. ahaha. looking to develop this further.

Name's Rei. I'm megaman. ahahah. With a soul similar to blackstar's.
what can i say? I'm a mutt. hahahhhhaah

well, im off to listen to some more music. i want to record but my voice is FUCK3d. sore throat, runny nose haha. i guess ill just have to write then.

peace and love,
Rei.

I want to meet some

Geeky chicks.
like gamers, computer literate. and likes anime and manga?


im tired of all these typical girls who watch baseball and say the word drama.
who have a bad relationship and say "fuck boys/guys/men etc.
who where too much make up.
who disrespect what they dont understand.
who drink at parties til theyre smashed.
wHo TypE liK Diss.
the girl who makes fun of other girls and is nice to them when actually in their presence.
the girl who wont break up with her terrible boyfriend because she doesnt think she can do any better.

(i dont know this girl. its just cliche)


i dont want any of those girls.
but it seems as if those are the only kind around.

i want a good girl. a smart girl. a sweet girl.
who i can protect until im gone.
happiness is too much to ask.
but im over due anyway.
the way i see it, the world owes me.


peace and love,
Burakku suta.